Tuesday, August 4, 2009

what a diffrence 6 months makes

Wow, can you believe that 6 months ago was my last night of sleep before I had Chloe! So much has changed I don't even want to start that list. I do want to say that my life has been changed in so many ways that I had to think about "who" I am. I know you might say something like "is she on something?" Why do I have to define myself? The last couple months have been stressful, if I could give any one advice it would be do not move 2 times within a six month period and have a newborn. So with this new life (moving twice and having a newborn) I have been a little stressed which means "grumpy Lisa"

Gary is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. However he told me to "get over myself and stop being so grumpy" to say the lest I was more grumpy. :-)

So with all this stuff I had to undo my grumpynes. I decided that I had to redefine myself. So as a happier and not stressed Lisa this is what I have learned in the last 6 months:

1. is there any rules for being a mom, and a wife? NO! I felt that it was my obligation to do all these crazy things to the house and for myself that I forgot that all our family needs is to be safe and clean and for Chloe nurtured.
2.We are suppose to be happy! We were not put here to complain or to think negative, although we (I)do a lot it's a breath of fresh air when you try to think positive, your outlook on the world is so much better, and really if it isn't going to matter in the next ten years WHO CARES right?
3. Being a mom has brought so much more meaning in my life when I remembered the responsibility that I have to raise my children the way I want them to be raised then the way the "world" would raise my children.

So after only 6 months, Chloe has grown so much, But for me I have became someone who knows What I want and Who I am, a proud mommy.

one of the songs that have helped me through this last 6 months is:

It wont Be Like This For Long

He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all night
Layin’ there in bed listenin’
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laughin’
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
‘Cause it won't be like this for long

Four years later ‘bout 4:30
She's crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now don't you worry
This’ll only last a week or two

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you'll drop her off
And she won’t even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long

Some day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times he'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the aisle
And he'll raise her veil
But right now she's up and cryin’
And the truth is that he don't mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers

He lays down there beside her
‘Til her eyes are finally closed
And just watchin’ her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah, this phase is gonna fly by
So, he's tryin’ to hold on

‘Cause it won’t be like this for long

It won’t be like this for long

3 comments:

nathan n rachel said...

That's a neat experience Lisa. Thanks for sharing.

Dave and Abby said...

Lisa, you're awesome. You know that? You're so great about not accepting your weaknesses or trials as unchangeable things - you always work on improving yourself, making the best of things, or choosing to see something from a different angle. You always have, even during your teenage years. You're great.
Abby

Laura Ann said...

I love that song, and thanks for the reminder!